This post is for me more than anything. It's a way for me to pour out my anguish. As well as provide a place for me to go to see his little face again when I need to. This, you see, is Gideon aka Giddy aka Love-button. We had to let him go unexpectedly today and I am thrashed/devastated/destroyed. We are a household of cats. We don't have children yet. We have cats, and they are as much family as anyone could be. And, when you lose a family member things aren't okay. At. all. All I know to do is honor him here. Tell the world how much he was loved and will be missed. How he loved me and me alone. How he was my shadow, and how almost never, did I sleep a night where he wasn't right beside my head. Giddy and I, yeah, we were close.
How could you not love that little face. Sure, he was a little odd. Sure, he was the runt, and looked a bit like an alien as a kitten. And, sure, he was most likely inbred which made him short a few very important parts. But, he was the sweetest most affectionate little guy you ever would meet. He lived to press his little head into my hand. All he wanted was to be close enough to snuggle in and let you know he loved you. What more could I ask for? What more could I want? More time.
We got five good years with him. Not near enough, but enough for him to change me. Enough for me to fall hopelessly in love. Enough to feel lost without him. I know I will heal and the pain will ease up eventually. But, the memories will never leave. Which I am so very thankful for.
Hope you are playing with a ping pong ball right now buddy, and have all the kibble you can eat, and most importantly, know how much you are loved and will be forever missed.
Love always - Momma