I thought this photograph was darling.  It is a prime example of the fabulous, and truthful notion that being different is so much more interesting, fun, and inspiring than just following the crowd.   It took me a loooooong time to learn and embrace that.  I still struggle with it.  Often.

I've gotten to where I can quiet the negativity a little more readily than I could when I was younger.   I just never felt I was good enough.  I tried to dial it down.  Be more "normal."  But, even so, I felt I stuck out like a sore thumb wherever I went (still do.)   It's always been like that.  Some see it as a gift, others see it as an annoyance.  I see it as my blessing and my curse.    But, as I get older, I have to admit, it's become more and more of a positive.  I'm finally allowing myself to have an identity.  To truly embrace myself, including all the quirks, flaws, and strengths that go with me. To stop being so scared and running from myself.

That doesn't mean that I don't have relapses.  Often. 

But, even with all my neurosis, I would rather be different, and interesting than bland, and run-of-the-mill.  Anyone else feel that way?  I sure hope so. 

 I wasn't planning to have an emotional purging session here today, it just kind of came.  Apparently, I needed to air that out. Although, I try typically to keep things relatively light, and design related, I really am going to try to share more of myself with you all in the future.  It's good to let people in. To be known.  I hope that's okay.   It's something I'm working on so, thanks for listening anyhow.

Have an utterly lovely weekend.  I'm hoping to do a little antiquing. Nothing too crazy as I'm pretty tapped out in the pocketbook, don't you hate it when that happens. But, even so... I'll let you know if I find anything good. 


Christie said...

Well written. Embracing the different, it makes us unique and beautiful.

Jenny B. said...

FYI, I never comment, but just wanted to say that you are one of my favorite bloggers, and I look forward to everything you post. First, because your design sense is so fabulous and UNIQUE!!!, and because you come through in your posts - as a blog reader, it's wonderful to be able to get a sense of the real you. So yay!! And different is definitely beautiful.

Mrs. Handyverger said...

Anxiety Girl is so me! Thank you; that made me laugh.

Please do share more of yourself - I think you'll find you're not alone in your quirks. :)

Anonymous said...

Thank you for sharing. I adore your blog. I too just wrote a bit of an emotional post for my blog last night that I'll post next week sometime. It was hard to write so I had a couple of drinks afterwards, resulting in me stubbing my toe and breaking my foot. And there I was trying to move forward and be positive. *sigh* I will always be my own worst enemy.



Lisa Mende Design said...

Sweet and honest post! I love it! You must be a really special person! I think God made us different so that we can embrace each others differences! I don't want to be like everybody else! How boring! You are perfect because he made you in his image!

Debra said...

Once you can truly find yourself and be yourself it is so liberating, exciting, and quite comfortable it feels very very natural and as you get older it is so much easier to not worry about being like the crowd or doing things that everyone else does. Trust me once you turn 40 you don't give a dam about what anyone else thinks about you how you should act look or be and by the time you start getting into your 50's it is truly all about you trust me I know!

Emily said...

I'm right there with ya!
And, Debra is right. Once you turn 40 you will feel liberated!
Don't ever apologize for being you and thanks for keeping it real. And psst.....it's nice to know you are one of "us".

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